I hate being quiet so much sometimes. It’s not that i’m shy, i don’t think, i just don’t have anything to say. like seriously. when i look around, it seems like everyone makes friends so fast, and everyone is laughing and having a good time so easily, i just don’t understand how they do it. It comes so naturally to them, and it seems like if i confronted or asked them about it they’d just say something like “Speak your mind!” but the thing is i just feel like i don’t even have a mind to speak. Sometimes i feel like a part of my brain is just MISSING, i feel so blank and boring. It’s such a lonely bad feeling and i really don't feel like most people would even understand, even my friend (to whom opinions and talking comes very easily). Is there anyone else out there who feels like this? I hate living like this.